{"id":8668,"date":"2021-08-18T03:48:52","date_gmt":"2021-08-18T03:48:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/?p=8668"},"modified":"2021-08-18T04:00:12","modified_gmt":"2021-08-18T04:00:12","slug":"vem-ar-jag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/2021\/08\/vem-ar-jag\/","title":{"rendered":"P\u00e5 flykt fr\u00e5n sig sj\u00e4lv"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p>Var befann jag mig n\u00e4r jag s\u00f6kte dig? Du fanns inom mig, men jag hade g\u00e5tt bort fr\u00e5n mig sj\u00e4lv, jag fann inte mig sj\u00e4lv \u2013 hur mycket mindre dig!<\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">F\u00e5 har skildrat m\u00e4nniskans brottning med sin egen kluvenhet s\u00e5 som Augustinus av Hippo. N\u00e4r han efter m\u00e5nga \u00e5rs vagabonderande l\u00e5ngsamt b\u00f6rjar n\u00e4rma sig den kristna tro han brutit upp fr\u00e5n i sin ungdom, accelererar en viljornas dragkamp inom honom. Vad g\u00f6r man n\u00e4r man b\u00e5de vill och inte vill? Han skriver:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p>N\u00e4r jag tvekade om jag skulle tj\u00e4na Herren, min Gud, var den som ville det jag och det som inte ville det \u2013 det var\u00a0<em>jag<\/em>. Jag var inte alltigenom villig, inte alltigenom ovillig.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">B\u00f6rjan till genombrottet kommer f\u00f6r Augustinus n\u00e4r en v\u00e4n ber\u00e4ttar f\u00f6r honom om \u201d\u00f6knens fruktb\u00e4rande \u00f6demarker\u201d. Det befriande m\u00f6tet med Kristus g\u00e5r f\u00f6r denne romare genom den f\u00f6r\u00f6dmjukande insikten om ett livsprojekt d\u00e4r han i s\u00e5 h\u00f6g grad varit p\u00e5 flykt fr\u00e5n sig sj\u00e4lv:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p>Men du, Herre, v\u00e4nde mig vid hans ord tillbaka till mig sj\u00e4lv, du drog mig fram ur det g\u00f6mst\u00e4lle bakom min rygg dit jag flytt n\u00e4r jag inte ville se mig sj\u00e4lv \u2026 Jag s\u00e5g och blev f\u00f6rf\u00e4rad och hade ingenstans att fly bort fr\u00e5n mig sj\u00e4lv.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n<!--themify_builder_content-->\n<div id=\"themify_builder_content-8668\" data-postid=\"8668\" class=\"themify_builder_content themify_builder_content-8668 themify_builder tf_clear\">\n    <\/div>\n<!--\/themify_builder_content-->","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Var befann jag mig n\u00e4r jag s\u00f6kte dig? Du fanns inom mig, men jag hade g\u00e5tt bort fr\u00e5n mig sj\u00e4lv, jag fann inte mig sj\u00e4lv \u2013 hur mycket mindre dig! F\u00e5 har skildrat m\u00e4nniskans brottning med sin egen kluvenhet s\u00e5 som Augustinus av Hippo. N\u00e4r han efter m\u00e5nga \u00e5rs vagabonderande l\u00e5ngsamt b\u00f6rjar n\u00e4rma sig den [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8668","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fastebloggen","has-post-title","has-post-date","has-post-category","has-post-tag","has-post-comment","has-post-author",""],"builder_content":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8668","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8668"}],"version-history":[{"count":21,"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8668\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8690,"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8668\/revisions\/8690"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8668"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8668"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tidskriftenpilgrim.se\/fastebloggen\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8668"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}